stevieyoo

I forgot to say why im happy. My mom and her boyfriend, who I've recently came upon realizing that i like, mightbe getting married soon. I found a house for sale on the internet, and it's on bluepoint road in Farmingville, by most of my friends. I showed the house to him, since it's really his decision because he's the one with the money who could afford it, and he's really considering it. I'm so excited, and I know I shoudn't get my hopes up, but I can't help it! The few people who actually care abgout me go to that school, including my boyfriend. Being closer to him would make me so happy, just being able to see him everyday. My mom is really putting an effort into her drinking, and she hasn't picked up one beer since about two weeks.  I'm very proud of her, and can already tell she looks happier. I'm getting a haircut Friday, but I don't know where I'm going now.. probably to Jesse's and then after iceskating sleeping over Jenns. It'll work out... My mom's in sucha good mood she got me a video game! I haven't played those in a while. Harvest Moon- one of my old faves! :D School's tomorrow, but I have a feeling I won't be going the whole week because I haven't been feeling so hot. Its my time of month haha. 

I sorta wish I was alive in the 1960's. Life was a lot easier. I coulda been a hippy, and coulda been soo carefree the world woulda been a better place. There would of been more peace and love, no war and fighting.  Music meant a lot more, and id have all my friends and concerts. Drugs were a good thing then, and werent as big of a deal as they are now. Nothing was as big of a deal as it is these days. Right now I'm pretty carefree and happy, and I love it. I just wish it could be like this all the time, which is why I'd wanna go in a time machine or something and live in the 60's :D

I feel eh. I moved, and I'm closer to some of my friends, and might even be able to find a job here. It's a better house too, one I'm not embarrassed to show off. The thing is though is that I'm like a half hour away from my other friends. Party Friday though, and I'll get to see everyone. I dont know what we're going to be occupied doing, but it should be fun. After realizing that I don't really have one true best friend anymore, it doesn't matter where I live, except I'd rather live closer to Jesse. I'll have Chelsea here of course, at least she cares about me and wouldn't ditch me for a stupid boy who will come and go. Well, it's 7 am right now and my school has a 2 hour delay, which sucks since it's my first day so I'm not even going. My appointment with guidance is canceled which means when I get there I won't know where my schedule or anything, soI'm just going to wait until tomorrow. Sachem has off too, so hopefully I can spend some time with my boyfriend. Oh and I think I'm in love :]

Today I stayed home, which could be a part of the reason why I'm writing this. I might be going over Jackie's house with John, Pat and Mard later if my mom agrees. I think what I'll d is surprise her and clean my room or something. That way she'll be all happy! Anyway, I'm excited about this weekend even though I didn't want to go at first. I'm going over Chelsea's house tonight, and we might be hanging out with Kiera. Then tomorrow's Saturday, which means we'll have the whole day to ourselves! Well, we'll probably be hanging out with Jon Adams (and i'm still not giving his shirt back) since he lives like right up the block from her. Maybe Andrew too since I love him. Chelsea says he might like me since he's always saying good things about me, but there is NO WAY I'd go out with him. He's definetly more like a brother ahah. I think Gavin from Center Moriches might like me too since he always compliments me which is unusual for him to do. I'm so confused about everything, especially boys. Christmas, boys, school, and possibly moving again are the highlights. My dad just called today and was like "Laurie! Trish and Kylemoved out and they're renting their house! They can make it cheap and the kids would want to go there you'd love it. Call me back.. blah blah." Now I have to decide on living in a better house, or living in a better area where I have most of my friends. And then, I have to decide onall the guys who might possibly like me, which is bad too. There's Andrew, Gavin, Martin, Nick K, John S, Eddie, John ?, and Pat?. And those are just the ones I found out about! It's not like I'm a whore or anything, I don't even know why they like me aha. Maybe I should just stay single and not have to worry about it all. Anyway, it was a bad idea for me to stay home today, because now I have to make up like a million tests after the break. Did I mention break? YAYYY

Last night was spectaculer. I don't remember having such a good time in a very long time. People from selden and Farmingville came so it was interesting. The thing is is that mArdin and Eddie was there, and I kind of got Mardin upset after he found out that I don't want to go out with him. Maybe I should just stay single for a while. Eddie I thought I liked but I found out that even though everyone else thinks he's so hot, I'm starting to think that he isn't as much as i hoped for. His personality is kinda weird too, like he shows off and whatever. Well, I got to meet Jeff, and I don't get how christa doesn't like him. He's the nicest guy ever. What was funny last night at sports plus though was how Martin and Eddie and everyone thought I probably liked him. I didn't even care. Last night I was completely myself, and didn't care what anyone thought of me. I got home and was so tired, but I really hope we can do this next weekend with everyone. Except Jeannie and everyone though cause I don't think Jackie liked them much. Haha well I also loved Jackie's house with all the bratz dolls and dinner with everyone. Mom made such a weird noise and it was soo funny.

im sick. I've been sick since Saturday, and it sucks. Name any of these: sore throat, tummy ache, headache, tiredness, dizzyness, stuffy nose, runny nose, and I have it. I want to hibernate until it goes away. Oh and i don't really use this anymore unless its like once in a blue moon but thats okay.

I'm officaly using livejournal again. There was a time when I paused, or yielded with making these but I've decided I shall write once again.

My bday was yesterday. It wasn't as exciting as i thought it would be, but I was still happy. I got an AWESOME $350 camera- a casio exilism i think its called. I was taking a million pictures of me and some of my friends all day with it. Then when I got home and wenton the computer I saw that at least 50 different people left me comments on myspace or wished me a happy bday over aim. =] When my mom got home, she surprised me with a KITTEN. I got a KITTEN for my birthday too ! She's black and white and her names Kiwi, andshes the cutest little thing, except 3 out of 4 of my cats hate her and hiss at her and stuff and i feel bad. I slept over Emily's house last night with Lauren and Sherry and Nicole too, and it was all fun until SOMEONE had to break my camera. I haven't even had it for a full day until someone breaks it. It sucks, and now I don't know if I'll be getting a new one. I think it was Emily who broke it [shhhh] because I would ask questions and she wouldnt look me straight in the eye and you could tell she was lying with practiaclly everything she said. Oh and Nicole pierced Emily's cartilidge too, and it was scary.

My birthday's in 6 days !! whoop whoop im excited ! I'm getting a camera FINALLY. And my great little brother is getting me a Nintendo DS out of his own money. Awww

the party was pretty boring but funny at the same time. More than half the people I invited showed up, but in a way that's a good thing since it would've been weird with a lot of people. There was only three girls-Me, Breanne, and Chelsea most of the time. The rest were guys. I'll list everyone who came since I have no life:
-Me
-Chelsea
-Breanne
-Aunt Lisa
-Uncle Lew
-Nicole my cousin
-Steve, Nicoles "friend"
-Scott my cuzz
-Dan my Aunts friend
-Denise my aunts friend
-Eric my aunts friend
-Eileen my aunts friend
-Grandpa Dick
-Grandpa
-Grandma Elaine
-My brother
-My brothers friend Anthony
-My dad
-My dads gf Linda
-Linda's daughter Gia
-Linda's ex boyfriend Jimmy (weird, i know!)
-Martin
-Tyler
-Kyle Sr.
-Trisha
-Kyle Jr.
-Tyler
-Matthew
-Jon Adams
-Tim Savage
-Ryan Mccormick
and I think that's it but I have a feeling that I'm forgeting someone... oh well. Umm JACKIE you could've slept over there and my Grandpa could've given you a ride home but I guess I forgot to tel you that. Whoopsie daisy. Ok well Tim and Jon and Chelsea left early, then Ryan, then Martin. It was funny since me and Martin were pretending we weren't going out since we didn't want my Dad or anyone to find out and embarrass us. Then Kyle Sr. and Trisha were drunk and Tyler and Matthew wound up sleeping over. Kyle Jr. couldn't since he had work in the morning. But yeah it was interesting, since Breanne fell asleep at like one and I had to stay up another four hours with them. But yeah I'm tired and sore now and I don't feel like typing so peace nukkas <3

yayayay party tomorrow ! It's might be a little boring but I'm gonna try to make it as fun as possible lol. umm yeah and i might get in trouble for inviting too many people since it was only supposed to be like 6 and i invited like 20 haha so . I'm gonna get in trouble if a lot of people show up and there mihgt not be enough food for everyone so im just crossing my fingers that a lot of people wont show up. Haha is that a bad thing for me to do or what ?

new favorite sonnggggg :
[Chorus:]
When he want it he blindfolds me
Then I get sexy on him, get sexy on him, like
[Repeat 2x]

Told him what I like
When he heat it up at night
Made him stand behind my door and watch me (uh uh uh)
And I couldn't believe the type
He was saying all the right,
Whispers gettin' mami right, I was (uh uh uh)
So I had to get the ice
Homie wanna fly the kite
Had to show him what a pro I was (uh uh uh)
I was headed for the light
He refused to take a bite
Till I put my blindfolders on
I'm saying something like

[Bridge:]
You just taking it all, what's gon' be left for me
I told you get it, but you're taking it all from me

[Chorus:]
When he want it he blindfolds me
Then I get sexy on him, get sexy on him, like
[Repeat 4x]

Hold up
Let me take this off
Just to see where I can catch my breath at all.
Hold up
You got a pretty strong team
Got somethin on the bench that Kelis ain't seen
Hold up
Why you treat me like that
Bout the 3rd or 4th time you ain't had to do that
Hold up
Won't you let me cheat once
And I promise you won't never make me keep this on

[Bridge:]
You just taking it all, what's gon' be left for me
I told you get it, but you're taking it all from me

[Chorus:]
When he want it he blindfolds me
Then I get sexy on him, get sexy on him, like
[Repeat 4x]

[Nas:]
The last thing you get
Is a blindfold and a cigarette
You willing to bet
Like an ocean cruise
Mami, I'm so addictive
How long I('ve) been stroking you gives you motion sickness
Grant your wishes
I leave you four senses
Smelling, feeling, tasting, and hearing
One minute I'm gone
Next I'm reappearing
The bed is the bentley
I'm doing the steering
I got your eyes in the veil
With your hands all over my tattoos
Like your reading the braile
Like my wine
With a spicy aftertaste
Though you fine
I like to cover up half your face
If you blind and can't see
What I'm bout to do
The suspense so intense won't allow you to move
Gonna surprise you
Like Hugh Grant in 8 and a half weeks
Kelis and Nasty

[Bridge:]
You just taking it all, what's gon' be left for me
I told you get it, but you're taking it all from me

[Chorus:]
When he want it he blindfolds me
Then I get sexy on him, get sexy on him, like
[Repeat 8x]

Yesterday was fun. Me and Jackie went bowling with Mike and Mardin and me and her got all dressed up weird. I was a punk girl and she was a slut haha. Anyway, it was fun and it's too bad my gay mom won't let me sleepover again so we can hang out. I mean,l come on. She wants me to stay home for no reason while I am on weekdays. wtf

So I'm getting used to everything-the people, the classes, the teachers! First off, I made sevenish new friends since I've been here which is really good if you think about it. Of course I give everyone smiles though, but there are five people who i actually sit with and stuff. Ok first, is a 10th grader named Nella [lauren], whose in my career and financial class. She's not exactly a friend friend, but I became her friend somewhat becasue I knew her before. She goes to Danay Reth's church which i visited a couple of times. I don't know if I want to be her friend of not, but she's the only one I have in the class. She always brags about how much trouble she gets into and I don't know if I'd like to have that near me.. hahah! Well second is a girl on my bus whose in 9th and is friends with danny V so I became friends with her too. She's really nice!!! Then there's Mary, whose in my gym and sits next to me in science. She's kind of loud like me [believe it or not i tend to stay somewhat quieter in class], but nice. Frank too, but I'm only his friend in the way that he's new and I'm like one of the only people who introduced myself to him so he probably thinks opf me as a bff! haha that's how I was when I was new. Brian is in my art, english, and maybe another one i cant remember, but he's nice and everything. I think he likes me though since he keeps saying how skinny I am and he invited me to go to the mall with him tonight. I said nooo cuz I'm sleeping over my bffs house jackie and were going bowling with mike and mardin <33 Oh and theres a 10th grader Danielle I think I forgot, but yeah shes like one of the two tenth graders in the class and shes really nice and pretty and im happy she chose me to be friends with instead of all the popular bitches in it. Anyway, I think my friend Mark likes me which sucks ass because hes one of my best friends and I definetly don't like him! He knows I have a boyfriend too so I hope not. And omg today I had to run down the street to catch my bus it was so embarrassing! Evelio thought it would be swell if I walk to his locker and then to mine, and by the time I walked out the door the buses were leaving so I had to run around the sidewalk ahh. No homework though excpet for vocab =]

High school is the shit- except when you're stuck with the older kids in ur classes

Ok so the night before Breanne slept over but I spent the day over her house yesterday, and we picked out each others first day of school outfits. All was good until I got home at 10 pm last night. My brother Dan runs to me and says "Mom's drunk", and I automicallly get pissed. She's not allowed to drink, since she's made mistakeS in the past, and she promised us both that she stopped. She's even in probation right now so if she gets caught drinking she could go to jail. Well, she said don't worry nothing will hapen unless you want it to. And I do want something to happen. I don't care what it is I just don't want to have anything to do with my mom anymore, because she obviously doesn't love me or Dan if she realized it's HER fault we moved to my Aunt's, and its HER fault she can't drive and that her children hate her now. My mom's just going to start everything over again, just when we thought everything would be better. I'm calling my Aunt sometime today and telling her everything and I want to see what she says. I stayed up until 4 in the morning thinking, and also hearing my mom and her EX BF JOHNNY for those of you that have heard of him having sex. I trashed my room. My mom didn't care and she continued to have sex with him, even though she has a boyfriend right now, who also is her boss in her job that she depends on, so once he finds out, she'll be fired probably and have no life, and waste down into nothing. But I wouldn't care, because by then I won't be calling her my mom anymore.
This may not make sense to the people reading, it's realllyyyyy confusing!

I thought I would be hanging out with Martin today, but when he called me I realized that I'm going school shopping on Saturday, and if I get caught my mom won't take me. He woke me up at quarter to 12, and I couldn't go back to sleep like I usually can so here I am, half awake right now. Then I called my fajia asking when I'd be home, and of course he said Saturday. So I had to explain to him how and going shopping and he sent me into a guilt trip of how I haven't seen him in forever and that he can drop me off in the morning.. Somehow I have a feeling things won't work out the way I want it to. It never does.

With out Jackie I wouldn't have made this haha. This whole livejournal thing is really confusing and i dont know how long it's going to take me to get used to. Whatever I'm not going to give up I just need to get a layout and everything... But it's pretty fun to write about stuff so yeahh. I get bored easily so I'll be on this a lot I bet=]